谢谢你 那些过得去 那些过不去的伤疤

So, it's almost a week since I seat infront of my laptop to do my own stuff. Well, I am like fighting w my fever the past few day, or even now. I was badly sick since Sunday, but it wasn't that bad on Sunday morning, afternoon. It only gotten worst in the night, where fever out of no where shoot up, pity my men who stayed up just to check on me every now and then, to the extend that he couldn't even go to work in peace on Monday, and decided to just stay home to take care of me 24/7 even helping me to send Vensabell to school, just so I could just have all the rest I needed. Despite taking all kind of medication it doesn't cure me at all, I just gotten worst and worst as days goes by. And finally, I decided to see the doctor yesterday, usually if I could, I wouldn't want to visit the clinic because medication is way too expensive.

So on Monday, my temperature still not that bad, able to survive still. But it gotten worst on Tuesday...

My degree literally shoot up the next day morning, and by the time I reach the clinic I was already at 42 degree. 

And finally medication to cure all this things. (But honestly I am still sick even now) I wasn't really seem to be better despite taking the antibiotics though. And its torturing especially at night. But Honestly, I've to thanks my boyf for his 24/7 care and helping me throughout this period. I guess he is drained just by taking care of me, even my mom can't handle me when I am sick, because I hate being sick and I will actually cry if is unbearable for me. LOL!

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Okay, enough of all the sick now just pray I recover soon alright? And based on my facebook, and Instagram. I guess  many of you thought my boyf actually propose to me, or even we are getting married soon? Nono, there isn't any wedding bell coming, nor is there any proposal coming, it's just a normal ring that he brought it without discussing with me. Though the ring is super nice, and it happen that it fit me nicely too. I assume it was our first month gift for now? For those have yet to see the ring I will post the photo here again. 

It's super nice right, I actually love it alot too, but yea, it isn't any wedding bell ring. so don't read too much. 

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and now, I wanna share my joy! MY GUDE-GUDETAMAAAAAAA. Okay. people who know me well enough, know I am crazy over this little egg, and it's not normal kind of crazy, I would put it in a sense that I'm extremely crazy over them. And recently I just brought their stickers, and I don't know for what, don't ask me. I just couldn't resist it.  

VERY CUTE RIGHT! Yes, it's very cute, I cannot.  HAHAHA!

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Okay, I don't know when was the last time I changed my wallet. Been looking at a few recently and finally they have somethings that caught my attention~! Click on > Charles and Keith < to view the wallet! I kinda got attracted by it because of the back card slot which could be taken out, majority of my previous wallet are almost the same with card slot that can be removed. And one more things attracted me about this wallet is the brand it wouldn't fade off like my current wallet and previous wallet.

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Okay, I am done with my blogging already. I am feeling kinda tired now eventually I am tired everyday since I am heavily on medication for the past 4days! Bye!

Because of you.

K. I am suppose to be having bible study now, but it seem to be cancel, as is already 2.35PM and I see no one~ So, since I am seating infront of the computer now, decided to come and do some quick update of my life? LOL! Like as if I've tons of reader here right? K, anyw my blog purpose was to look back on my memories time after time. was browsing through my photo on my phone, and found the above photo, I think quite nice uh. HAHAHA! Do some self praising is fine right? And I've changed my blog layout two days back, because I was too bored. And I kinda bored of white suddenly~   Let's do some throwback of last week holiday alright?

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So, we have a family gathering last Friday cause is my parents 30th anniversary, to think about it we're their achievement though road for me and my sis wasn't seem smooth over the years, especially our marriage, we both have divorced at the end of it. But it doesn't matter, I promise them I would be alright, I would be able to achieve my happiness one day. As for my sis, she's gonna re-married soon. Probably end of this year. So she's doing some preparation already. And well, as for my parents, 30 years together, definitely not an easy thing, but they make it this far, and I hope there's 40th, 50th so on and on.

Back to topic, so we have dinner there, and as usual mahjong, and for that week mahjong itself, is a pretty bad one. cause boyf and I lose alot like legit alot. And I felt so guilty bout it even till now. *ROLLEYES. Okay, and Vensabell stayed over on Friday night, thinking to fetch her on Sunday, but no. things eventually wasn't turn out to be as what we planned. 

Cause Vensabell eventually have fever on Saturday, so after my sushi date w boyf and Jensabella, we eventually headed to mom place to fetch her back. And yea cut it short. Weekend is Mahjong and home. that's all! Here's some photo for that weekend. 

A photo w Jensabella before heading for her Sushi on Saturday. 

Then a photo w my boyf when we're eating, K! My mom say we look kinda alike on this photo, I guess cause of that spec!

And here, the cheeky Vensabell, who is sick, yet doesn't look like she is right! She didnt go to school on both Monday and Tuesday. And eventually brought her to see doctor on Monday, as her fever isn't going down. But she's alright now, though she having cough!

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And me, well, I am having bad cough and flu now. I also don't know what was happening, but my immune system seem to be rather low recently or infact the whole of this year~ Like a little weak recently too. 

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Okay, the amount of craft things is adding on and on. I guess I almost needed a drawer to just keep all this, rather addictive learning craft onlines etc. I have a awesome boyf who loved me this much to let me buy this much, and I can honestly tell you the amount of craft item is way too much, and you never realise it was this much till one parcel after another one reaches your door step. And I kinda think this is too much *Slapped myself hard and tell myself is enough of craft shit. So I am no longer shopping onlines now. 

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Andddddddddd this is the last thing I've brought onlines, eventually I couldnt find it in any local supermarket, So I eventually give up buying, Until I saw it onlines, was rather expensive I brought it at $9.90 excluded delivery~ but well, I just have to get it to try it no matter what, especially me, when I've craving, I want it means, I really want it. Finally boyf give me the green light to purchase, with a rules he is not going to eat it with me! And so I ate it this morning, for breakfast. 

For people who can't eat chilli, please do not buy it to hurt your lips or throat. OR even waste your house water. Cause it's spicy for me, it's still okay, cause I am a chili eater myself, and I would die without chili if you didn't know. I am in love with spicy stuff, and I can't live without food that's non spicy actually. So whatever I order definitely with a EXTRA CHILI PLEASE. HAHA! 

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that's about all, I've just received a text that my bible studies gonna start in 10 minutes, which mean they're reaching my house in 10 minutes from now.  sooooooooooooooooooooooooo, goodbye1 

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Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid

The unexpected lover.

Back for a update, since I'm kinda boring now, I've nothing to do at this point of time,  On top was a throwback photo on Saturday, the day we went to watch The Boss Baby, awesome movies. It really worth the watch, and I guess Vensabell and Jensabella enjoyed themself too, they seem to be so engross throughout the show, especially for Vensabell who love baby so much. We then headed for dinner after movies, the kids have their MacDonalds while me and boyf decided to pack some coffeeshop food instead, cause MacDonalds is just not my things, let the photo do some talking bahs.

We have a so-called family photo together before we went out. 

And look at how big my Jensabella have grow, still love her.

Movieeeeeeees ticket!

And then they have their final things for the day. 

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So that's about all for Saturday. Now, I wanna show my lovely Hello Kitty bag!  

This bag came unexpectedly, because there's one morning, I saw it on facebook, and just decided to screenshot and show my boyf, without wanting to get it actually, just think is nice, but on the other hand I've lotsa of bag too, so I don't see a need in getting extra, but  my boyf just decided to buy it without telling me, but you know guys can't seem to keep surprises so end up he told me he actually brought it, thinking I might love it. And of cause, I love it alot.  And to be exact it was my first Hello Kitty hangbag to begin with! Sometime saying Thank you just doesn't seem to be enough.

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A photo with my drinking kakis! LOL! Been catching up w her more recently because she's always drinking near me, which is located at Sembawang too, so I tends to drop to drink with her at a pub named "Qpub", not a bad location for small chilling uh, but if wanna go havoc that's definitely not the place to go, Haha! But it's always fun catching up with her, cause we always have tons of story to share!

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A photo of Vensabell who decided to snatch my boyf all the time. She eventually take the whole bag to her own, a throwback for Sunday. And yes, it's definitely a big family day as usual. Went to my parents place, this time round I didn't went alone, I bring boyf along to meet my parents. And we as usual do our weekly affair, which is Mahjong! And yea went back home was already 8.30PM, and Jensabella was saying that she's hungry, so we eventually packed food at coffeshop, but to speed up, I get boyf to bring the kids home first, while I pack the food downstair, but nevertheless I can't escape paying the ERP everytime I went down.  So below is the price of the ERP. 

Yes a bottle of Carlsberg. From two bottle I bargain till one bottle. When you have nice neighbor, everythings just seem wonderful! 

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Ending my post here w my sexy photo. Goodbye people!

Life move on.

I don't want to take a afternoon nap, so decided to on this laptop of mine, and decided to do some blogging. As you can see on my side bar,. Two is better than one. Yes, I'm officially attached now with  Sylvester. And eventually I believe everyone see it coming isn't it? Matter of time, we were official on the first day of April, nope it wasn't a prank, I know many of you still think it was. Over here I'm gonna clarify it wasn't a prank. Ask me if I am happy now, definitely I am. I found a man who I think will take good care of me, I found a man who is proud of having me, I found a man who is as simple as me. 

A man who will take care of me when I am sick, based on my instagram I was badly sick last week, and he was there taking care of me, waking up in the middle of the night just to make sure my fever doesn't rush up, and yes to the extend he too, fall sick right after me. But thanks god he was stronger than me, because people who know me, I can't fall sick, I would cry, I would curl out like a ball. I would be worst than a baby. But I am fine now, thank to boyf for taking care of me then. So eventually this man of mine, was simple he doesn't demand for anything, though he was quiet most of the time. I remember people say find a man who isn't afraid of you touching his phone, find a man who will help you dry your hair when you are out from shower room, find a man who will make plan for you, find a man who will leave money for you when he is out to work, find a man who can can cook, find a man who will take care of you unconditionally, and I found him. 

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I'm excited for coming Saturday, having a family date. My man is gonna bring my two princess for a movies, and yes, we're gonna watch Boss Baby! Hopefully everything go smoothly, personally I didn't bring them to cinema before, because I don't know if they would seat down there for hours not moving, and not making a single noise. Eventually the kids are growing up fast, beside being naughty as ever! Below is a throw back photo of them. 

Oh yes, they dropped their front tooth, both of them. So they are named as bogey now. LOL! 

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I guess there's things people are wondering too right, since I accepted Sylvester. How about the exboyf of mine that I use to be waiting? We're all adults I believe things sometime are straight forward. We don't accept someone out of accepting isn't it? We accept someone believing that there's future. So it goes the same to me, I accepted Sylvester believing we will make it till the end. (though it didn't happen to my ex.) But, he have his love life now too, it's been 7 month he is in his relationship, so I guess I don't have to explain further why did I moved on. Eventually before Sylvester, I was too, in a relationship for only  3 month, I don't call that a relationship since is only 3 month. it's just a  come and go things anyway, and it's a pretty toxic relationship which I wouldn't want to remember, though this toxic guy give me wonderful memories before, but I thank him for appearing to bring me out from the darkness I was having then, I would call this feeling a infatuation, "you thought you love, but you actually don't" kind of love.

As for me and the suppose to be waiting man, life have to move on I guess, almost 3 years relationship, I believe part of me will always love him, just like part of him will always love me. We have a relationship nobody would understand. We ended it the adult way should, I believe both me and him respected one another back then, so is now. There's no regret in the decision we made. I believe if I am happy now, he would too, be happy for me. And yes, I would be. 

I thanks him for everything he had taught me, he changed me to a better person. And I am who I am today, I would thanks  my past, for it push me further, make me stronger. I believe that's how it works for every past. 

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Anyw, today I headed to daiso and I actually spotted this cute little glass and eventually I brought it down.  Tadah~ cute right? I think is pretty cute. So I decided to bring it home. 

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Okay, I am gonna end my post with a throwback photo on last Saturday, the day I got together with Sylvester. 

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Goodbye for now. That's all for today!