It's been long. I decided to just seat infront of my laptop to blog about anything. Recently something is rather bothering me badly. Or to be exact it has been bothering me for long. So while I am typing things on my blog today, I've a mug of beer infront of me.
Let's start off w some throwback photo that was taken the past few day or even weeks.
The above picture was taken on Sunday, when I stayed over at my mom's place. MiniB & my mom have a very strong bonding there. Only she dare to do that to my mom. I don't even dare to draw on my mom. *LOL! So it look nicely capture~ My mom was having some nose masking on her. That explain the black nose she's having.
Okay, so miniB & giantB been playing with application called Snow, and honestly they have fun with it, laughing non stop whenever they look at what they've become.
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Okay, back to myself. It's been 2 years now, and I'm wondering if is worth fighting for. I felt tired sometime, but I dislike the feeling of being alone, it's like I love to have you around me, but sometime when I'm all along for so long, it seem like it doesn't make any different to have you, or not to have. I got confused with what I actually wanted.
Someone asked me, am I looking for a husband? Of cause I'm why would I just be with anyone and not think about how the future be like, isn't it. I might seem young but I know I've no more time to waste, I don't want to start a relationship and ended after a few month. I don't wish to waste my time on relationship like this, what I wanted was a future plan, was it that hard?
Honestly, being a mother of two. My priority definitely will be miniB & giantB if you can't love them, like how you love me. Then, I'm sorry please find a better one. I believe you wont be the one for me.
Anyway, I've booked an appointment on 21st June at Regent Law, to settle my divorce issue, I hope everything goes well, though currently is barely 2weeks away, there's already some issue going on at AndersC side. And it seem like my divorce plan going to be dragged again? Actually dragging anot, really doesn't bother me much. My life still goes on without him!
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Both Elene & Lyna have given birth just recently. Though I didn't contact them already, but I still felt happy for them. Seeing them happily married i felt so blessed for them. Though till today I doesn't know why our friendship turned out to be this awkward. Like what I always say, some people are planned to be in your life, some are planned to just cross the path. But honestly I have alot of wonderful memories with them throughout th past years.
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I came across this on facebook, and I find it rather meaningful.
"Dear girl who's been replaced,
Just because he's already with a new girl, that doesn't mean you should feel like you've been replaced because the truth is it's impossible to replace you. He might think she's prettier than you, he might think her personality is better than yours, and he might think he's more compatible with that girl than he was with you, but don't let him take away how special you are in your own way, how unique you are in your own right, and how amazing you are in your own light. You shouldn't look at her and feel ugly, you shouldn't compare yourself to her and feel like you aren't good enough, and you shouldn't see how he loves her and hate yourself for it. He might not be able to see what you're worth, but you should know what you worth. He might not be able to recognize your value, but you should be able to recognize what your value is. He might not be able to realize what you deserve, but you should be able to give yourself what you deserve. Sure, he's already with another girl, but that doesn't mean you have to already be with another guy, too. Right now is the time for you to find yourself and pick up the pieces of yourself that were left broken by him. You don't need to be worrying about guys, let alone one who doesn't care about you anymore. I know you're feeling vulnerable, but don't be so quick to fall for the next guy who's there for you because you aren't ready to be with someone at the moment. If he's already happy because of another girl, good for him. He's no longer your problem. He's her problem. Let her deal with what kind of guy he truly is when she eventually finds out. Just focus on yourself, do you, and eventually you'll be the reason why you're happy.
Sincerely,
A guy who cares"
Decided to post it here too, cause I think it really worth the read. Alright, that's all for today. I shall continue my beer alone.
Ending my post with miniB. Goodnight.
