Being a mom.

It's been long I actually seat down infront of my laptop to actually blog. So today since both my miniB & giantB is on bed now. I shall spent sometime writing about what it's like to be a stay at home mom.

I was on unpaid leave for the whole of this week. YES, WHOLE OF THE WEEK. I don't know how much I've actually miss staying at home. To be honest, if I have a choice, I would want to stay at home, do my own things, spending plenty of time watching my kids grow. But the society in Singapore, you definitely can't survive staying at home.

Everything is increasing, even now after #GE2015 is over, the school fee is raising. So, ya I can't afford to stay at home, especially I am not feeding just myself, but my two princess too. So this one week, I spent day and night doing endless of thing, so you think mother that doesn't need to work living a good life right?

Seriously, let me tell you. The clothing that you wear everyday, doesn't drop into washing machine by itself, you have to throw it in. At the same time the washing machine doesn't operate by itself, you have to operate it. So now, you think after the washing machine finish grinding your clothes, it will automatically hang your clothing to dry? Of cause not, you have to dry it up. So now, think about what your mom is doing at home. You think she eat and sleep daily? So, having a clean floor everyday, because no one actually dirty the floor? Excuse me, even infant will drop baby hair, not to say adults. So now, floor is full of hair, here and there. Someone got to vacuum it, and definitely wouldn't be you either. Is your mom. She does it, and she even mop it, so that the floor is good to step on, and even look shinny!

Yes, I am staying at home this one week, doing all the endless housework, cleaning every single corner of the house, at the same time spent plenty of time with both my girls. I use to have so much time with them everyday, till they go to bed. Now, every morning I've barely an hour with them, and during night I have barely two hour with them. Just because I've to work, and I had to sent them to childcare. So this one week definitely something different for me. I look at them, playing, chatting with one another, crying, asking for milk, asking for tidbits, play with them while showering together.

I've so much time with them. But obviously, I have to go back to work on Monday, and stop all my unpaid leave. As I am barely surviving this month, not to say next month. Life is tough for me, more tougher than you can expect.

I only gotten SGD700 last month, due to my unpaid leave, because miniB was down with HFMD follow up with high fever like roller coaster. Caused me to have so much unpaid leave. And I didn't even paid a single bill! So this month salary of cause I am not expecting alot, but sigh, it's gonna be worst than ever again.

Sometime I wish I could really have someone to understand what's going on around my life, and help me fix everything one by one. Instead of me, needing to carry so much thing on my shoulder. Sometime is so heavy that I almost fall.

And, my wonderful "husband" is definitely enjoying his life now, with his new Thailand girlfriend. He must be so happy that he no longer need to worry about bills at home, kids expense and so on. Ya, all the best to him, I will definitely succeed one day. Just time, is all I needed.

Please give me the strength to keep on going, keep on moving.

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Life will get better.

There's no explanation needed

As shown on photo, isn't it cute to have so many friends celebrating birthday for you? Yes, is giantB 5th birthday last thursday, And I took a half day leave to celebrate with her together with her classmates. And obviously that day she is the most happiest girl on the earth. At lest to me, I can tell how happy she is. I didn't want to have cake being wasted. So I brought just a 1kg cake for her to share with all her lovely classmate. At the same time I have also brought some swissroll cake for the teacher, as well as goodies bag for the children. So here's a few picture of the celebration she have.

So after her celebration, I bring her and miniB home to wait for my god-mommy to arrive and bring us out for dinner. We had Pizza Hut for dinner, giantB ate one full plate of cabonara, while I had Pizza as well as a half spring roasted chicken shared with god-mummy. Pretty much sum out giantB birthday.

Not forgetting is my daddy birthday too. This year it falls on Thursday, so I didn't make a trip to my parents place, cos they're working as well. So promise my dad that I will make it up to him over the weekend.

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So I'm home for like 2 day already. Yes, miniB once again fallen sick. Just last Monday she recovered from her HFMD and now she is down with fever like some roller coaster that going up and then down, after that up and then down again. Having alot of hard time to get her to eat her medication as she really dislike it alot. Brought her to see doctor yesterday morning, gotten myself a 2 day MC. But I guess, I need to extend her MC, as I believe she wont be able to go back to school with her still having fever now. Sigh, people tell me to just bear with it, if this is the first year they are at childcare their body still wouldn't be able to take it, especially when miniB body immune system is low by itself.

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So, chances upon Anders facebook last month. And now it disappear for some reason he blocked me, I don't know why, but actually some asshole like him I really dont know why still have people going after him? I mean like seriously, but I can't be bother much now. In some way I am more worry of the amount he have own Courts (Electronic Store) thats amounting to 23K as of now, and I've also received letter regards them coming to my house wanting to seize my furniture, because of the debt that he didn't paid up. 

At the same time, he also have a maybe near 6K now debt with POSB. So yea, he have alot of debt on hand, Guess he is going to run away sooner or later. But I heard that he is currently working in Sentosa, selling luxury watches. Good for him if he found a job, but I seriously hope I can cut clean with him as soon as possible. I don't want to be tied down by the status of married.

People like him? *shakehead

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Okay, I dont want to blog any longer, as miniB is cranky and wanting me to just seat beside her so I guess I will just end it here as of now. Hopefully, I can be back to work on Thursday, As tomorrow is totally hopeless to even think about it.

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Tomorrow is the 2nd.

Happy 15th, love.