Because, life have to go on.

It's been awhile I spent time seating infront a laptop. Don't know why, but I've decided to start back my life in blogging. Perhaps, this is the only place I could actually relate all my problem when I've no one to speak to. So a quick update of what happen throughout this period of time.

I've moved on in my life, being a single mother of two now. I've left Anders and this time, for good. Based on my previous blog update in 2013 we were still doing fine, even gotten a flat together in Sembawang. Moved in together, and shit happen.

For the first few month everything seem perfect, but not long later he cheated again. This time round I'm not turning back. I moved back to my mom place for a period of time, spending night drinking (during work), asking myself why life have to be this way. But now, I'm doing good. Just that I've yet to divorce with Anders, but soon I will. Since the amount to divorce is rather a huge sum.

Anyway, I've moved back to Sembawang, with both my girl's. Staying alone with them is definitely not a easy task. Especially when either one of them fall sick, I'll have hard time handling them. So how do I support myself? Well, I gotten a fulltime job myself, and both my girl are in childcare now. So I spent rather less time with them now, cos I will be working during the day time, and the only time I've with them will be night time. And usually less then 3hours a day, they will be good in bed.

So working a fulltime day job, is not a joke. Ever since I'm married I stopped working in day but continue in night, most of the time I will be working during the night time. I've been working in Boat Quay for a long period, and drinking became part of me. Hence, trying to adapt back to day job is not easy for me. But seem like I'm getting use to it already. I've been working for 5 month coming to 6 month. But my attendance at work is bad. As the kids taking turn to fall sick and I have to be on unpaid leave most of the time.

But, thanks God that my work place are understanding enough, else I think I would have been fire long ago. Currently I'm on 1 week unpaid leave again, as miniB is down with HFMD. I need to spend most of the time with her, as she is in pain due to her big ulcer on tongue which is really bad now. This month I guess I've to struggle again with my paid being deducted so much.

My circles of friends are getting smaller, the group I use to hang out with, naturally I drifted far with them, one by one. One after another. I don't know what happen, maybe because I've my own family, and I have lesser time with them? Or maybe there's reason behind I didn't know? But it doesn't matter anymore, because sometime, having lesser friends is way better than having too much of fake friends who speak ill about you.

Okay. Life move on. &I've moved on. I don't know what more should I type. I just feel very tired now. And maybe I need a long break for myself...

Ending my night with both my miniB & giantB. They've grown up this much,