The weekend

Didn't have time to really do any update, at times opening the lappy I don't even know what to write or blog about. But decided to do a update today since I've a wonderful weekend (I suppose)! Hopefully, I will be able to go back to work on Tuesday, after miniB review tomorrow. She's on the verge of recovering or perhaps, she have already recover? As there's no more ulcer on her tongue nor mouth anymore.

Hasn't been working for one whole week, and my salary is shit for August. As I am having like a total of 5.5day of unpaid leave. How bad could that be? Is like 2 week of not going work, and I've like credit card bill, hp bill (2 hp line), wifi bill, childcare fee so on and on. ALL THE BILL. If only, all this bill can don't pay, how good would that be?

So my Saturday was quite a boring one, as I didn't go anywhere beside bringing miniB for her hfmd review. On Saturday night I cook braised pork belly for dinner, Preparing and washing it really sucks, but cooking it definitely is a joy to me, as I am the type of girl that love to stay inside kitchen to cook freely, and I think is in me since young, I remember that whenever my mom's cooking I will follow her in to the kitchen even though she doesn't allow, as is oily I will still insist to go, So yea, I learn all the skill from her. So here's a snapshot of my braised pork belly for Saturday. 

The photo look very black due to the filter. But my dad say it was awesome! So I think it really is, and he say there's no need for improvement, as it tasted damn good. Well, the praising of cause make me super happy, After a hard time inside the kitchen is worthwhile.

As for today, I woke up early to prepare breakfast for the kids. I came across a video on facebook yesterday, rolling up the egg with ham and cheese. And it look super yummy, so I decided to give it a shot today, but my girl doesn't like ham, so I replaced the ham with mushroom.

Well, it look tasty isn't it? I am a fans of mushroom and cheese. So I call this omelette mushroom cheese is quite a simple dish to make, though the egg didn't manage to roll well. I think is because i replaced ham with mushroom that's why is so difficult to roll it up.

But who cares? At the end of the day is the taste that matter isn't it. Both miniB & giantB enjoy their breakfast today, as I only do special breakfast on weekend like Sunday, cos I'm not working and I will have all time to make for them whatever they like or want.

My parents came over my house around noon time, as they promise to bring the kids out for meal today, so we had Sakae Sushi today for dinner. We had an early dinner. And my mom order alot of food as usual. Just notice that I took a few snapshot of the food and missed out giantB in the photo maybe because she seating beside me. (laughs)

So, I am lazy to type much about the sushi the photo will do the talking. I shared curry udon with my mom, and also have my favorite spicy salmon & tofu! Something that I can't reject all the time. But, I started to get sick of salmon now. I guess because my mom had bring the kids to eat sushi too often since March. Is like almost weekly and I been eating it so often! I need to stop eating sushi now, at least for a period.

After the meal we headed to NTUC for a short walk, didn't buy anything much from there just want to digest the food we had before heading home. So before we leave for home, we brought ninefresh is a dessert stall. And is super nice, though I am a fans of blackball. But there's no blackball near my area so we had to buy something similar isn't it? But of cause ninefresh does taste nice too. Here's a photo of it.

don't hesitate to try, cause it does taste a good it look like. The only things is it doesn't contain ice! But overall is worth. It only cost like SGD2.00!

K, I'm gonna end my post for now. Feeling sleepy already. Lets pray that miniB is able to go back to school after her review tomorrow, So I can go back to work on Tuesday and of cos the whole of Sept so on and on. I really need to work super hard for the family, as being a single mom is really not easy! Sometime I really wish I have someone I can rely on, someone to that can take care of me and the kids for the rest of his life. But it seem like it isn't easy. But well, is okay I am gonna endure all this hardship and stand up be stronger than before.

So ending my day with a throwback photo of me and giantB

Goodnight peoples! Do follow me on Instagram if you have not!

I'm not a superwomen.

I have to admit, I have a good sleep last night. In some way, I manage to sleep till morning as miniB didn't wake up during the midnight, unlike the past few night...

Wondering what I've done since I woke up? Below is the list of what I've done.

0930A.M - Send giantB to school.
1000A.M - Vaccum the floor / cleaning the fans.
1030A.M - Changing the bedsheet / washing the bedsheet.
1100A.M - Mopping the floor.
1145A.M - Drying the bedsheet.
1200P.M - Getting ready to cook lunch for the miniB &ofc bathing her after their meal.

Thats like for the whole morning until noon. After that finally, I could have a break to seat down and have some rest. So what you mean by rest, I didnt manage to nap of cause, as I've to take care of miniB. But something good about today is she seem to be recovering. Manage to drink 6oz of milk this morning when she woke up. Manage to eat some porridge during lunch.

So finally, evening almost coming near. Today decided to fetch giantB early from school. So I fetch her 2 hours early today. As I didnt cook dinner, I really had no ideal what to cook. So brought her to nearby coffeeshop to let her choose her own dinner. But well, as usual she walk to the chicken rice store and order her favourite chicken cutlet rice. Sad to say, we reach alittle late as it was sold out. So no choice, she have to eat chicken rice. Packed drumstick for her. (I suppose drumstick taste nicer with more skins!)

miniB, didnt eat much on dinner as the ulcer on her tongue seem to be killing her. So giantB alone finish the whole packet! (The reason why she's so chubby, isnt it?) miniB, drank a packet of strawberry milk! And had a few slice of cheese, I hope it fill up her small little tummy. Just pray that she is gonna get even better tomorrow.

As for me, I usually skip my dinner. Unless I really feel super hungry, which I hardly will. At the same time I'm not feeling very well too. So, I guess no dinner tonight.

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Sometime, I hope that you'll understand me more than anyone else. And give me the attention I needed.

Because, life have to go on.

It's been awhile I spent time seating infront a laptop. Don't know why, but I've decided to start back my life in blogging. Perhaps, this is the only place I could actually relate all my problem when I've no one to speak to. So a quick update of what happen throughout this period of time.

I've moved on in my life, being a single mother of two now. I've left Anders and this time, for good. Based on my previous blog update in 2013 we were still doing fine, even gotten a flat together in Sembawang. Moved in together, and shit happen.

For the first few month everything seem perfect, but not long later he cheated again. This time round I'm not turning back. I moved back to my mom place for a period of time, spending night drinking (during work), asking myself why life have to be this way. But now, I'm doing good. Just that I've yet to divorce with Anders, but soon I will. Since the amount to divorce is rather a huge sum.

Anyway, I've moved back to Sembawang, with both my girl's. Staying alone with them is definitely not a easy task. Especially when either one of them fall sick, I'll have hard time handling them. So how do I support myself? Well, I gotten a fulltime job myself, and both my girl are in childcare now. So I spent rather less time with them now, cos I will be working during the day time, and the only time I've with them will be night time. And usually less then 3hours a day, they will be good in bed.

So working a fulltime day job, is not a joke. Ever since I'm married I stopped working in day but continue in night, most of the time I will be working during the night time. I've been working in Boat Quay for a long period, and drinking became part of me. Hence, trying to adapt back to day job is not easy for me. But seem like I'm getting use to it already. I've been working for 5 month coming to 6 month. But my attendance at work is bad. As the kids taking turn to fall sick and I have to be on unpaid leave most of the time.

But, thanks God that my work place are understanding enough, else I think I would have been fire long ago. Currently I'm on 1 week unpaid leave again, as miniB is down with HFMD. I need to spend most of the time with her, as she is in pain due to her big ulcer on tongue which is really bad now. This month I guess I've to struggle again with my paid being deducted so much.

My circles of friends are getting smaller, the group I use to hang out with, naturally I drifted far with them, one by one. One after another. I don't know what happen, maybe because I've my own family, and I have lesser time with them? Or maybe there's reason behind I didn't know? But it doesn't matter anymore, because sometime, having lesser friends is way better than having too much of fake friends who speak ill about you.

Okay. Life move on. &I've moved on. I don't know what more should I type. I just feel very tired now. And maybe I need a long break for myself...

Ending my night with both my miniB & giantB. They've grown up this much,