Some truth are better left unsaid.

Because I no longer know which is the truth anymore,

and I no longer know who to trust anymore.

Chapter One, Page Ten

Is only second week to 2k17, and I am already running fever. So I been sleeping, and sleeping most of the time since yesterday, but at least I manage to get my housework done at all time. Went to get a new phone two days ago, people who know and understand me wouldn't believe I swap to apple. Cause it wasn't something I would want, and I ever swear I wouldn't get iPhone. But still, I took iPhone this time, took a iPhone 7plus, was hesitating between the matt black and rose gold, end up i still choose rose gold instead, and I seriously have hard time trying to understand this phone. But, so far so good. Since I'm still using my Sony. So most people thought I changed number, I will be using both number so I will be contactable be it the old number or the new number.  So here's a photo of my new toys~

Jensabella doesn't seem to coping well in her primary school. She seem to be not able to adapt to the surrounding, I'm trying pretty hard to make her understand that she is no longer in childcare.  And that she will start to have her spelling etc.  While Vensabell on the other hand wanted to go school with Jensabella~ Really give me alot of headache sometime. 

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Actually I've nothing to blog about honestly. I was just too bored at home and been sleeping too much, popping too much medication. But the headache I'm having last warning. And to think about it I have yet to eat anything since I woke up till now. Morning after sending both girl's to school I headed back home and dozed off till 11 plus,  Just went down to market to buy some ingredient to  cook some simple soup. Yesterday I boiled wintermelon soup, as well as barely due to the weather is pretty bad and I don't want my kids to fall sick.

Tonight I am going to cook something simple, and yet is the first time I am doing it, hope is a success one, I was told it was a little hard, but yet easy and healthy, quite chim right~ Shall not type longer anymore, my headache really can't seem to tank. 

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If i was given a chance, I would still risk all over again...

Chapter One, Page Three.

Welcome 2017, it's gonna be a great start I suppose? I ended my 2016 beautifully, though it was a very struggle year for me, many things just ain't going the way it suppose to be, and finally it really drag me to deep emotional stir, till someone appear and pulled me up from the darkness. It wasn't easy task because I choose to lock myself up for a period. And drinking every single day just so I can shut my mind for the night. But is alright, it's over and I believe is a better year. Thanks for those who walked with me in 2016, and walking in to 2017 with me. 

And so, today is first day of school for Jensabella, I took leave to keep her accompany for her first day, and I realise she really grow up too fast, is like just yesterday she was in my arm... I don't know how much time I can give too them. Went to visit her during recess time, and I realise she isn't eating, I ask her why, she told me teacher ask her to eat lesser. Really can't stand her, but thanks God i bring a packet of milk, and a pack of tibits for her to eat. Anyway, here's a photo of Jensabella and Vensabell~ Hope their studies journey will be a bright one...

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I marked my 2K17 on a diet plan, I need to lose more weight, people say you grow fat only for two reason, you're in love, or you fall out of love. Either one? And I'm gaining alot of weight recently, have the thoughts of going to gym, but at the same time feel weird going. Abit hard to please, so I shall start the most basic by going for night run daily, don't ask me when I'm starting, cause I ain't a sport person, so I don't have any sports wear, I got to get them first, so probably need to push it to after Chinese New Year?

 Been drinking alot lately, rest in peace to my lovely liver. Especially the last long week end was a madness. Drinking 3 night in a roll isn't a joke, I think I no longer can drink the way I use to, cause now I always complain about needing more sleep. More beauty sleep, and even more.

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Last photo for 2k16!

I am planning to do a regular update as and when I can, or as and when I'm free. Anyway, my contract in Uber is ending. Though I've thought of extending. Shall see how it goes uh. I am left w only 2 days to consider to extend or not to. Life is toughs when come to making a decision sometime. Staying because you need to survive, but the job scope is pretty boring for me, I don't like doing the same thing every single day. Or maybe I really should go for my dream. 

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My divorce is going to be final soon, and I am a step nearer to free women, a step closer to many things in life. And sometime, I feel proud of myself, because I was strong enough to carry the two kids with me no matter where I go... And I will continue to do it till I am no longer in this world...

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I hope time will get all the complicated issue solve soon. I've given more than enough time, I ain't rushing on anything, but I hate this kind of feeling. And I do give you the understanding you need, but on your side I wish you could also give me the understanding I wanted. 

Hey, I miss you.